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I’m back and I have (baby) news

I’m back and I have (baby) news

Posted October 19, 2017

I know, I know… I can’t believe it’s been more than TWO months since I last posted. My ‘business brain’ is saying ALL the stupid things like; Gosh, that is POOR form Claire. That is not very business savvy of you. You can’t just VANISH and disconnect like that. But, umm, everything else in me says this; Claire, breathe, actually it’s really, REALLY OK that you went MIA. It’s more than OK to switch off from the online world. To take breathing space and conserve your energy. After all you had good reason to Claire... Which brings me to my BIG NEWS. Maybe you already know? Maybe you’ve seen my recent instagram post or you suspecting this all along but here goes. I have another little soul-baby growing within. I’m now 15 weeks pregnant and finally on the other side of what was a wild ride through all-day sickness, extreme fatigue and a deep exploration into the self. +++ Big news right? Round two on the merry-go-round. Stay with me, I want to share WHY this is such big news… (other than, holy crap I have a miracle inside of me!) Big because once again this was a beautiful surprise – my babies like to make the decision for us as to when it’s time! And yet there have been SO many incredible moments of synchronicity, messages from the ‘other side’ and mind-blowing connections with this baby before and after conception. Big news because once again I was thrown into the deepest immersion of the PRESENT. Being that sick forces me to let everything fall away. And when I say everything I mean… EVERYTHING. My work, email, social media, cooking, reading, exercising, meditating. It’s pretty full on to be stripped bare and exposed RAW and left to watch the inner workings of my mind and long held shadows come forward. Big news because, quite ironically, I asked for MORE SPACE a few months back and I got it. You might remember this post where I pondered on what it would be like to have more space to allow peace to come through. And maybe clarity around purpose.  The last 2.5 months there has been nothing but space and my mind boggles at how much INSIGHT I have gained from it. In fact, I  have SO MUCH I want to share with you yet I don’t even know where to begin. *First world problems Big news because I have always truly felt – despite my resistance – that motherhood IS a integral part of my soul’s purpose. And there is something about motherhood that I just GET. We are like puzzle pieces that fit together snugly. Despite the trials and challenges (or maybe it’s because of them) I know there is so much growth, learning and ultimately sharing/teaching that will come from bubba number #2. Big news because this pregnancy has mined up some shadows from the early months with Soleil. I’m not back seeing the same Pre-natal Psychologist to do the necessary clean-up work. A constant (and conscious!) work in progress I am. +++ So here I am, I wanted to check in and share this big news. There is a lot I don’t know right now – other than come April I have another baby joining our family – but I am allowing the truth to roll on in as and when it’s meant to. Oh yeah baby, surrender is a knocking once again. I do know this though my loves – a few insights I have already gleaned and want to share. My work is changing – again. But there are still a few things I want to create before D-day (That’s DUE date btw) I have a deep desire to promote myself to full-time mama for a while.  My passion for whole food cooking has been reignited (I’ll share more on this soon but essentially I have eaten this way for years but really lost the BUZZ to cook and create, until, well, now) I want to simplify, everything. A sea-change (relocation) is being seriously discussed in our home right now. Space, a slower pace, a veggie patch, the ocean.  We can go to really dark places and fall to our knees in struggle but we will ALWAYS come out the other side into the light, standing strong once again. +++Ok, more from me soon. I’m off to Port Douglas for a much needed family holiday next week and hopefully I’ll gain the clarity on WHERE and HOW to share more with you. Finally, remember this. I love you and am forever grateful for our connection over the inter webs. love + light, Claire xx Read more

Audio Blog: A simple practice to help you fall in love with your body

Audio Blog: A simple practice to help you fall in love with your body

Posted July 27, 2017

Falling in love with your body I’m not going to sugar coat this. Falling in love with my ‘new’ body since becoming a mama is something I have to work at. There are softer, stretched bits. Jiggly bit. Wider bits. All ‘bits’ I didn’t have before. Throw in LIFE and not as much time as I used to and the result is a woman working out less, eating differently and looking very differently too. Yes, I’ve gone from a size 6, toned, yogi body, to a size 8. Softer. More womanly. And definitely still healthy and strong. Nothing to complain about, but nevertheless it’s been a shock. It was a surprise when I realised, two years later that I STILL couldn’t fit into 95% of my old clothes. It was a surprise when I saw pictures of myself and almost said “who’s that?” It is still a surprise when I do a headstand in yoga and I can feel the weight of my stretched belly dropping down. But more than that, it’s a surprise to hear myself talk about my body negatively, out loud. How cruel (and not OK!) to speak so harshly about this divine vessel that gives me the chance to have such a brilliant human experience. Including the miracle of creating, birthing and nurturing life. So, beautiful women (and I hope a few good men too!) this audio blog is for you. It was for me too. And it’s not just for mamas. It’s for ALL women who have every spoken, felt, thought RUDE and degrading thoughts about their own divine bodies. love + light, Claire xx Read more

Strategy of Surrender

Strategy of Surrender

Posted August 30, 2016

Strategy for surrender Since the day little Soleil was born, in fact, since she was just a bunch of little cells multiplying I’ve been hurtling down the rabbit-hole of surrender. Over and over, day-by-day I’ve been asked to let go – to surrender. Surrender who I think I am. Surrender to who she is. Surrender to the struggle. Surrender to the sleep deprivation. Surrender to the loss of control and structure. Surrender to the chaos. Surrender to the beauty, and joy and insane love. Surrender to the god-like connection motherhood creates for me. Surrender to the sides of me I don’t like or thought I had ‘healed’           Surrender to the mess Surrender to the present moment           Surrender to it all… And you know what? I’m not there yet. How do I know I’m not there yet? Well, because I find myself trying to ‘figure out’ if there is something wrong – am I doing it right? Is Soleil OK? Have I missed something? I find myself looking for solutions where there aren’t any. Or getting lost in those feelings of futility and exhaustion that weeks and weeks of sleep deprivation do to you. I find myself pining for ‘time’ and trying to think about how to get more of it. I find myself getting trapped in the idea that ‘if only things were XYZ then it’d all be better”. When I notice I’m in this heady, catastrophizing, weary mindset I know that surrender and I have forgotten to nurture our bond. But here’s the flipside to it all. I know I’m never supposed to be and never will be ‘there’ with surrender. Not fully, completely. Not 100%. Why? Because we, surrender and I,  have a deal. I’m supposed to experiment with it, lose faith in it, find it again, go deeper with it, start all over again. Becoming a mama is so much more for me than creating a life (which is a miracle) and experiencing that journey. It’s about my own soul-journey with surrender. And this realisation always brings about the question, WHY? again.. The deeper why is because I’m meant to dance with surrender so I can share it all with you. I’m here to help you become besties with surrender. It’s my thing. it’s my job. And everytime I mess it up, that’s another up-leveling, re-education and re-learning so I can scrub up on my surrender skills. That’s what we do as teachers and guides, we have to keep growing and learning in order to help you grow and learn. So here I am, once again, letting go of the idea that I have to ‘fix’ things with my little Sunbeam. She is healthy, bright, BOLD, happy, oh-so-spirited. There is nothing wrong. Nor do I need to fix anything with myself as a mother, woman, wife, friend, daughter – I do enough, I am enough, I love enough, I care enough. I simply must accept, embrace and let go of the expectations and need to control. It means offering up my plans and my ideas and trusting that as and when it’s supposed to unfold, it will. ++ Take a deep breath with me now, because in true Claire style I’m going to flip all of that on its head. There are always two sides to every coin and this journey of surrender is much the same. Within the realisation that I must surrender and embrace the journey of letting go, I’ve also come to realise that part of this version of surrender (in mamahood) I must also take ACTION and come up with a strategy. I don’t have to give up every dream or desire to surrender, I just have to work with it in a different way. One of the massive stumbling blocks I’ve been facing is time. When your toddler is waking countless times each night and then only wants to nap on you during the day, well there isn’t much time left over. Domestic duties, cooking, eating, showering – these are the basics I’ve been fitting in amongst it all. Trying to fit in joyful work, creative time, spiritual practice and connecting to loved ones has been a battle. Surrender often wins. However, I’ve come to see a massive truth that surrender has delivered to me lately. It has said this; Claire, you DO have time, if you allow others to support you in caring for Soleil. You choose for Soleil to be the centre of your universe and for you to be hers. It’s your choice to prioritise her over anything else. It’s always up to you how and where you create and find time. Truthfully, I’ve hid behind being Soleil’s mama and ‘surrendering’ to her needs and the ebb-and-flow of her evolving being. I desperately don’t want to miss anything as she grows, but many of my dreams and desires with work and in life are ALL about creating opportunity, security and happiness for HER. So how to find peace between the desire and spiritual NEED to surrender over to her and to motherhood with the need to build, create, grow, call in abundance and success? And surrender once again answered with; Hire more help. Lean on your in-laws. Hand over the reigns to your husband more. Let go. You cannot be the only one to care for her. So there it is. And so it is. Surrender has sent me a strategy. I now see that I can fully embrace surrender day-to-day with my little one when I create more space and time for me to take action where action needs to be taken! It’s time that I let surrender become my strategy for life in both the moments of PAUSE + ACCEPTANCE as well as those of ACTION + CREATION. I choose to trust that surrender will only ever deliver me into what is right and good for my soul. Love + light, Claire xx OM MAMA LOVE… Mamas, I’m letting you in early on a little something special. […] Read more


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