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12 Days Of Radiance Christmas Sale

12 Days Of Radiance Christmas Sale

Posted December 14, 2015

25% off meditations + get my INSPIRED ebook for FREE! 12 days until Christmas! (P.s keep reading until the end for my #12DaysOfRadiance offer!) It’s such a cliche thing to say, but WOW, I can’t believe we are here already. It felt like just yesterday I was heavily pregnant and lolling about in the ocean, biding my time blissfully until bubby landed earth side. Christmas last year feels but a moment ago. Which of course leads me to contemplate the year that 2015 has been, and the year that I dream 2016 to be. So many lessons. So much joy – incredible love that I still don’t feel I can contain and manage in this limited human body that I am. So many struggles and challenges that both feel etched in my heart and mind yet oh-so-distant… all at the same time. There has been laughter. Full bellied giggles. There’s been astonishment and wonder. AWE at the miracle of life. Not to mention all the tears. Oh yes, a torrent of them at times. Moments of sheer contentment and pure acceptance only to be flipped when frustration, resistance and despair showed up. And did I mention the sleep deprivation? In fact, that hasn’t quite passed yet but thankfully I’ve come to accept it (mostly) and find a way of living on limited sleep. Oh the joys of motherhood! This year has been predominantly about bunkering down as I climb the steepest learning curve I’ve ever faced. It’s been about paring back and simplifying life as I surrender and soften into every moment. It’s been about completely embracing the moment – one hour at a time – whilst keeping one eye on the future. So much change – such an extreme cataclysmic shift and gear change – has meant this year has forced me to let go of all control even more and see change as the new norm. There has been a change in social life, personal time, business life. But with that there have been new connections made, fresh realisations, realigned dreams, new visions and a renewed sense of ‘being’, of purpose… of love. And you know, the one thing that’s been constant, my confidant and my truest guide in 2015 has been myself – my self in meditation. Myself in spaciousness, in stillness, in presence. Meditation has been a beautiful, delightful and often times challenging practice of mine for close to 6 years now. It’s changed so many times over the years but like a loyal dog it has always wagged its tail in my direction, jumped on my lap and reminded me how much IT loves me, and how much I love it. I’ve meditated whilst breastfeeding, at 3am in the morning. Moving, mindful meditations on morning walks. I’ve breathed into stillness laying on the floor by my babies cot, or in the quick and stolen minutes whilst she plays in her cot. I’ve meditated when hubby gets home from work. And some days not at all. Or in the shower. Each cascade of fresh, cleansing water my new mantra. I carry my headphones with me everywhere, ready to plug in to a guided meditation as the feeling calls me to. Truthfully, as I reflect on this year and ponder what the future holds I know that all has been and will continue to be well because I have the life skill of meditation – of being with myself – to hold space for me. Meditation draws out an inner radiance within. A glow that is felt from the heart, that radiates outwards. A secret, energetic potion that invites more love in, more light, more abundance, more of everything good. ++ Which is why this Christmas – starting today – I want to share with you the 12 Days of Radiance.  Each day (via Instagram and Facebook) you’ll see a beautiful quote – a way to remember your inner radiance – to inspire you to connect inward. To spend this sacred time of year reflecting and reviewing. Pondering and wondering. And all the while creating and holding space for YOU! Here is the first day of the #The12DaysOfRadiance With each day of the #12DaysOfRadiance and as gift to you for sticking by me this year (thank you!) over the 12 Days of Radiance you can get 25% of my hugely popular meditation albums: AND you also get a FREE copy of my ebook: INSPIRED – A DIY Retreat to Distil Your Dreams + Clarify Your Visions. This is the ultimate guide for your own DIY soul-centred retreat. A chance to step-away from the busy-ness of life and get shiny-diamond clear on your intentions dreams and visions. INSPIRED is a juicy ‘how-to’ – a mash-up of self-care + self-love, precious tips This ebook is perfect to help you get clear on what you want, moving into 2016 with journaling exercises, guided EFT scripts and so much more. You get: 25% off one or all three of my Reveal Your Inner Radiance meditation albums – That’s just $29 for one album or $80 for all three + PLUS My ebook: INSPIRED for FREEEEEEEE! Please join me on taking the time to reconnect with YOU. To create space for YOU. To reflect on 2015 and plant the seedlings of your 2016 dreams. And most importantly, to tap into your inner radiance and glow like the god/goddess of light that you are! CLICK HERE TO GET YOUR MEDITATIONS + FREE EBOOK Love + light, Claire xx P.s Don’t forget to follow the #12DaysOfRadiance via Instagram and Facebook! Read more

It’s time to master your inner mean girl

It’s time to master your inner mean girl

Posted December 08, 2015

Your mean girl, as my beautiful friend Melissa Ambrosini calls it, is your inner critic. Your ego. That ‘voice’ that so often tears your down, judges you, nit-picks and sends you into a spin of ‘not good enoughs’. Well, this same gorgeous friend has written her first book – Mastering Your Mean Girl – for all us women who, unfortunately, live under the thumb of that inner voice. And Melissa is here to share with you just how to find a way back into the driver seat of your life – instead of your mean girl taking control. Mel and I had a chat last week on all things ‘Mean Girl’ which we recorded for you! In this chat we share: How Mel came to understand and learn to master her own mean girl. Mel’s three main tips to start mastering your mean girl today! Our own personal and vulnerable examples of how our inner ego-voice showed up to (try) and tear us down. How to work with your mean girl, instead of fight against it. And soo much more! I’m so thrilled to share with you our enlightening conversation and of course to introduce you to Mel’s new book. Mel is a bright light! And the message she is sharing will shine down into the darkness bringing clarity and insight. It might be a new message to you, or a familiar one, but either way I know her story and reflections will bring you what you need. CLICK HERE TO PLAY (right click to download and save – listen to us on your walk or on the way to work!) https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/79968734/Melissa%20Ambrosini%20on%202015-12-04%20at%2017.39.mp3 Love + Light, Claire Read more

You don’t need to live courageously to live the way you want

You don’t need to live courageously to live the way you want

Posted November 10, 2015

You don’t always need to live courageously when you want to make your life happen. There’s this attitude – this common belief – that it takes balls, guts and helluva a lot of courage to grab your life by the horns and own it. But let me ask you this: Have you ever done something – embarked on a new experience/venture/relationship. Or gone somewhere – travelled. Maybe even moved home, started a new job? And did it happen effortlessly? Did it happen with minimal struggle. Minimal pep-talking even? Without courageously powering through it? You just did it,right? It happened. It unfolded and you experienced it. Now, let’s take a guess here and say that it happened this way because you weren’t over-thinking the experience and you weren’t all caught up in the mental drama of it. Yes? Well, ask yourself WHY. Why did it happen so effortlessly? Why did it unfold without your ego chiming in with a long list of why ‘you’re not good enough/you can’t do this/aren’t you afraid/this is not a good idea…’ and so on. Again – I’m going to take an educated guess here. Could it be because it FELT right? Could it be that you just knew, without question to go there/do that/be with that person/take that job/move to that home? You know that feeling I’m talking about. Intuitively right. Heart-felt YES. You just know because you know. ++ Was there courage there? Did it have anything to do with living courageously? Well, maybe a schmidge when you needed some inspired action. Maybe courage was called in at a certain point. But mostly, courage had nothing to do with making your ‘LIFE’ happen in a way that you wanted it to. And hey, let’s just clarify here, I am a fan of ‘COURAGE’. Sometimes we need that slightly reckless vibe of bravery or strength. Sometimes it’s ‘balls to the wall’ and jump in the deep end. Suck up your fears and let’s do this! But, and obviously, Courage is often reactionary, and sometimes irrational and has this energy of ‘grit your teeth and call on everything you’ve got’. Courage STILL has fear threaded through it – but courage takes inspired action despite that fear. That’s a beautiful thing. A much needed thing. But, when it comes to your life – following the path most true for you and living in a way that truly resonates – it doesn’t always have to be so intense and effort-full. You don’t always have to put on your battle gear and go to war. It’s not YOU vs LIFE. It’s YOU + LIFE. You work in tandem, in synchronicity, with the universe. It’s not always but it can be a fluid experience, especially when you drop the ‘warfare’ mentality and come at life with a softer, open to receive and intuitively led attitude. It’s not courage that gives you the balls to grab your life and take it. It is your heart. Your TRUTH. ++ How to be led by your truth instead of blind courage A client of mine, after our first foundation session, explained that she now has a lot more ‘clarity’ (YES!) on what she wants from her life. But instead of being filled with joy over this newfound clarity, she instead felt a little overwhelmed by how she will make it all happen. She hoped she could muster the courage to make it all happen. My response: Get out of your head – that’s where this ‘courage’ you speak of is living. It’s your ego freaking you out with the idea that you might not have the guts to follow through to your dreams. And then, drop into your heart and speak to your heart directly… What feels true? What feels right for me? What do I do next? We then went through a list of experiences and situations in her life that had felt effortless, true, beautiful, ALIGNED. And by looking at them we could see that they had nothing to do with that heady ego space, or courage or effort really. They just unfolded naturally because they felt RIGHT. Alignment, perfectly embodied. The point I’m making is this; you already KNOW what it feels like to be led by your truth. You have tasted that sweetness before. The challenge is to keep doing so, and to consciously CHOOSE to live by your truth. And the how is both simple yet not so easy to execute. But with practice (and practice IS the actually ‘how’) you can start to make your truth – your heart – the clearest and most obvious guidance you receive. And therefore, your truth becomes the way you live the way you want to. Remember this: right now, the loudest voice you hear is usually your negative self-talk/mind chatter/ego. It’s loud, pushy, and in your face. Your softer voice of truth is always (ALWAYS!) there, but you have to really lean in and listen up. When you feel the gentlest tickle from that soft voice and it brushes up against you, inside your soul then grab a hold of it… tightly! Keep doing this. Over and over and over. Keep insisting on your truth to speak-up. You can’t really get rid of that ego-voice, but you can kindly ask it to shush. And then do it all again. Lean in. Listen. Turn up the volume. And the most important step in all of this is to converse with your heart. Tune into your truth and then let it guide you. Hand the reigns over and tell your truth you ‘trust it’ and you know it’s got your back. It already knows what kind of life you are trying to create. In fact, it knows even better what’s right for you, than your ‘small’ self does. Give your heart ‘Power of Attorney’ and let it run the show. It will always guide you on the right path. ++ The more your heart and your truth takes the driver seat the less you need to act courageously, […] Read more

Living yoga off the mat with Amy Taylor-Kabbaz

Living yoga off the mat with Amy Taylor-Kabbaz

Posted October 06, 2015

This blog series is a reflection on how incredible yogis are living yoga off the mat – taking the powerful and ancient principles of yoga into their world. Meet Amy Taylor-Kabbaz AKA ‘Happy Mama with Amy’. The first time I came across Amy, a friend – Tara Bliss – linked to her facebook page. I was immediately struck by Amy’s authenticity and honesty around motherhood. Yet she managed to take the edge off the ‘intensity’ of what is otherwise, well, an INCREDIBLY intense experience. I was pregnant at the time, but now, with a 7 month old baby, I LOVE Amy’s blend of spirituality, realness and honest acceptance of this crazy-ass ride. So, to have Amy here today to share how she lives yoga off the mat (because truthfully, as mama, getting on your mat is about as sacred as shaving your legs – both aren’t easy to make happen!) well, I feel honoured. And I know you will just devour her insight. Mama or not, there is more than one golden nugget in here for you. Enjoy, Claire xx Finish this sentence: My yoga practice is… my sanity! As a busy mama to three, yoga is my absolute sacred space where I get to breathe, reconnect and recalibrate. How I practice that sacred space, and how often I do, has dramatically changed over the years though. At the moment, I get to rush out the door once a week leaving the three little ones in the bath with my husband and get to a life-affirming Kundalini class, and the rest of the time it’s me, my mat, and my 5am alarm clock… as long as the baby doesn’t decide to join me. To me, yoga means… peace. If I’m not careful, my mind will run a million miles an hour a million times a day. My go-to mode for most of my life has been overachieving superwoman, and even now, after years of mindfulness and meditation, my brain will still switch into this mode if I’m not careful. Yoga helps me be careful. Even though rebuilding my over-stretched and over-exhausted body through yoga has been important after each of my births, it is the spiritual and mental connection that I really crave. (Besides, keeping a semi-clean house with a 7, 5 and 1 year old is enough exercise, thank you very much.) My experience off the mat has… led me to understand my connection with the divine. It’s on my mat that I discovered that I don’t need to know all the answers, I just need to let them flow through me. It’s on my mat that I have forgiven those who have hurt me, and seen how to love unconditionally those I have judged – including myself. And it’s on my mat I finally find that little piece of peace that I crave when juggling children, marriage, and my business. When I roll that mat out, something happens… the actual physical act of rolling the mat out helps. Even if I only get three minutes on there before one of my children interrupt, the mat makes a difference. I think as Mamas, we need symbols and rituals to help us feel like we’re actually doing something for ourselves. It helps us be more mindful. The biggest shift/epiphany/moment of insight I’ve ever had during yoga was… It may not be the biggest epiphany, but it’s the most recent: In the last few months, I’ve received a book deal to write the ‘Happy Mama’ book for new (and not so new) mamas. This is, without doubt, my greatest dream come true. But as we all know, just because we’ve been dreaming about it since we were little girls, does not make it an easy thing to accept when it finally happens. Fear, insecurities, imposter syndrome and just good ol’ procrastination have kicked in, and old patterns have reared their ugly head. But it was on my yoga mat, at the end of my kundalini class and after a fear clearing krya, that I finally connected with my truth. With tears rolling down my cheeks, I saw and heard a very clear voice tell me : “you’re ready.” Since then, I have felt a calm that is completely new. I know that this is beyond my knowledge or my doing, and I am simply the messenger. And, I feel ready. Quick Fire Questions What are the lessons you carry on a daily basis, off your mat? Mindfulness. The ability to stay in the moment, stop buying into the negative thoughts in my head, and see things for what they really are carries me through every tantrum, every deadline, every moment of overwhelm. Why are these important to you? Because without them, I am a super cranky mama! In all seriousness, when I’m ‘all in my head’, everything falls apart. What yogic principle have you translated for yourself – what, how and why? Svadhyaya – Self-study. ‘Become the expert of you’ has been a big part of my journey in recent years. As a journalist, I have spent years interviewing and writing about other people’s opinions, always believing that someone else had the answers. But when I stopped looking outside myself and instead starting creating a practice of studying myself and my own answers, my life began to change. What does ‘Living Your Yoga’ mean to you? Taking the ‘aha’ moments I have on my mat into my everyday life. Being mindful with my children, and not just on my mat. Being grateful for the lessons in my life, being present, staying connected to something greater than me when I’m going about my day, and not just once a week in my kundalini class. It’s a challenge! But it’s what helps me be a better mama, wife, coach, friend and woman. Connect with Amy: Website | Facebook | Instagram | Pinterest | Twitter Read more

Get FULL on your feelings

Get FULL on your feelings

Posted September 21, 2015

I never quite thought it was possible but it’s true, you can feel everything all at once. Since becoming a mama I’m astounded at the way I can feel FULL to the brim with every feeling under the sun. Every emotion lives within me almost simultaneously. Hope. Grief. Pleasure. Fear. Guilt. Joy. Pain. Doubt. Have you felt this way before? Now, even? Are you nodding along with recognition that you too feel full? And isn’t it sometimes a little overwhelming. I’m often left a little destabilized by the firework show of emotions going off within. Truthfully, it reminds me of shadow-play – the way lightness of the sun dances about, creating shady corners and pockets of darkness… only to be juxtaposed with flashes of golden brightness. They exist because of each other. They are noticeable because of each other. They are made possible because of how they interact. Light and dark. And this is how I choose to see and understand the feeling of FULLNESS I’m experiencing. That the hope exists because of the fear. That the joy is made possible because of the pain and grief. That the doubt sneaks in when I drop my attention of trust. It’s astounding to realise, (but yet makes perfect sense) that they are nothing without each other. These feelings, these emotions and experiences exist because they have an opposite. And when we are blessed enough to FEEL all of it (and I say blessed because then, this means, we are truly living into our ‘humanness’ fully) then we get to experience the rich tapestry of life. We get to taste every flavour and do so with potency. ++ What does this mean for you? Simply that it’s time to embrace all of your experience. Every emotion. Every naked truth, dark moment and back-breaking challenge. As well as every moment of illumintation, spontaneous joy, heart exploding love. Go on then. Live it. Soak in it. Get drunk on the fullness of your experience. It’ll never happen again in THIS way. I can promise you that. love + light, Claire xx Read more

AUDIO BLOG: Your biggest lessons, on repeat!

AUDIO BLOG: Your biggest lessons, on repeat!

Posted August 24, 2015

Your biggest lessons, on repeat! The Universe will ensure that the lesson you need to learn most will come at you, over and over and over. There isn’t really an end point to the lesson. In fact, right when you feel you’ve ‘nailed it’ you’ll be hit with another plane or level to explore the challenge that you, in particular, need to face. It might seem like you are ‘learning’ the same lesson over and over, however it’s same-same but different. Get me? At the core the issue or challenge you need to most tackle in your life is the same, but how it’s packaged up, the context it is delivered in, can be markedly different. Why? Why does it happen like this? Why can’t we just learn what we have to learn and be done with it? Firstly, let’s be clear – there is no way to ever ‘nail it’ when it comes to your own spiritual growth. The sooner we let go of the idea we are aiming for an end goal, the sooner we can revel in and soak in the experience of LIFE. And secondly, well, it’s about expansion. Your spiritual growth is not so much about mastering your demons, but moreso about turning the shadow into light. Stretching. Evolving and moving deeper and further forward. And how do we do that? We embark on the journey, we face our biggest struggles and challenges, we learn and evolve and then we grow into the next level. Rinse and repeat. In today’s Audio Blog I share with you the lesson that I’ve been repeatedly hit with over the years, and how this lesson has come back again since becoming a mother. Staying present. Surrender. Letting go of control. Yeeeahhh. I feel like a broken record. And YES, I have certainly cursed the universe, frustrated that once again I’m learning this lesson again, and again, and again. But it’s all about breaking through a little more. So, when you’re ready, beautiful, hit PLAY and have a listen of this short audio clip (perhaps on your way to work). I want to inspire you to go there, to go deeper and to learn what you are here to learn. CLICK PLAY TO LISTEN https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/79968734/The%20lessons%20we%20learn%20on%20repeat.mp3 And when you’ve listened to it, jump into the comments below and share with us what your lesson (on repeat!) is in this lifetime? love + light, Claire xx Read more

Living Yoga Off the Mat with Krys Hansen

Living Yoga Off the Mat with Krys Hansen

Posted July 20, 2015

Meet Krys Hansen This lady is a gem. On her beautiful website, Modern Yogi Mama, it says that Krys is “just a yogi on an island who wants to change the world. A mum, a partner, a business woman & a friend.  A qualified yoga & meditation instructor, author, marketing whizz, online designer, veggie mama, lover of a surfing yogi & deliverer of truthbombs on yoga & life”. But I’d say she is so much more than ALL of that. She is a BIG hearted, deeply loving, attentive and soulful woman. Since becoming a mum Krys has allowed me to ‘lean’ on her for emotional support… and she has held me up so beautifully and with so much love. When I think of Krys I feel how much she embodies ‘yoga’ … not the asana practice or the physical form, but the divinity of it. I hope you fall in love with her and as much as I have. Finish this sentence: My yoga practice is… Less about the body than it used to be. I came to yoga as an escape from a relationship break up and as I worked through that emotional energy, my practice became about the body, the asanas. That was until I was pregnant and could no longer practice as I used to and all those lessons I thought I had learnt about yoga finally had time to sink in. My practice became more about prana, or energy. Meditation and awareness of how I move within this life and all its interactions is now where I place the emphasis of my yoga practice, and I tend to enjoy the asana side of yoga in a softer, more playful way. To me, yoga means… A balance of understanding the temporary nature of life while also trying to live a good existence in the now. It is the union of spiritual and practical life… being an example for others while maintaining the mindset of a beginner. My experience off the mat has… Cleansing and empowering. If our mats soaked up the energy we released during our yoga practice, they would weigh a ton! The biggest shift/epiphany/moment of insight I’ve ever had during yoga was… I don’t have to be perfect, and I never will be. That was a massive shift for me as I am a driven and determined type A. Once I fully realised that fact I found freedom in poses I had never been able to relax in as my body softened. By not mentally and emotionally pushing myself, I gave my body the space it needed to let go. That was the second epiphany… my mind and emotions rule my body, and I need to clear them before I feel release on a physical level. Quick Fire Questions What are the lessons you carry on a daily basis, off your mat? Everyone has their own ‘stuff’ weighing on them, but not everyone has the tools to know how to process that ‘stuff’, which is why they need compassion. Why are these important to you? I feel there is too much competition, comparison, and judgment between people… and it’s being played out in an almost unconscious level. I don’t want that in my life and I hope I can inspire others to be more compassionate. What yogic principle have you translated for yourself – what, how and why? All the yamas and niyamas have affected how I live my life, but I think Ahimsa has been the biggest life changer. Nonviolence. It has inspired me to live a kinder life through the way I eat, consume, my mode of transport, wastage, and words. Just knowing that I am leading a gentler existence makes me feel more peaceful, as I honestly believe the energy you put out comes back. What does ‘Living Your Yoga’ mean to you? Living with principle, but not rigidly. Yoga is about balance and flexibility, so even though I have an idea of how I want to ‘be’ in this life, I also give myself, and others around me, permission to fall and be imperfect. It is these lessons I want to pass onto my son and any future children. Connect with Krys | Website | Facebook | Instagram I’m just a yogi on an island who wants to change the world. I’m a mum, a partner, a business woman and a friend. I’m Krys Hansen. A qualified yoga and meditation instructor, author, marketing whizz, online designer, veggie mama, lover of a surfing yogi and deliverer of truthbombs on yoga and life. I work with women to create a soulful practice they can balance with being mothers, as well as a creator of meditation tools for fertility and creativity. Read more

Why I decided to ‘get help’ after giving birth

Why I decided to ‘get help’ after giving birth

Posted July 13, 2015

Why I decided to ‘get help’ after giving birth If you’ve connected with me here for a while, or even spent a mere five minutes with me, you know that I’m a big believer in ‘getting help’… that is, leaning on someone else, or something else to support you, wherever and however you might need it. When I needed support in my business, I worked with a biz coach. I also hired at VA and I outsourced the things I can’t do (or didn’t want to do) where possible. When I needed support energetically and wanted to work spiritually in a new way I signed up to work with spiritual mentor and psychic, Belinda Davidson. For labour I hired a Doula. For my health I see a naturopath, frequently. For my mind-body-soul wellbeing I see a kinesiologist, acupuncturist, masseuse etc (although, since becoming a mama I’ve not had the time to see my ‘A-Team’ as often as I like!) So you get the picture right? I’ve waxed lyrical many times about the importance of having your own little power support posse. The team who is going to back you, heal you, guide you, hold you and let you lean on them when needed. We are talking holistically here, too. Which means, it wouldn’t come as a surprise to you to hear that – after the cataclysmic event that is child birth, and the even more tremendous shift that is motherhood – I decided to get some more help. ++ What help did I need? Well, let me flesh this out for you. Imagine feeling all of this: Constant tearfulness. Emotional rollercoaster. Feelings of inadequacy. Insecurity, low self esteem and broken self confidence. Fearfulness. Anxiety and nervousness. Energetically broken. Overwhelmed. Soaked in negativity. Yep, this is everything I’ve felt in the first three months of new mamahood. I know I’m not alone in feeling this way… but nevertheless it became clear that I needed someone to help me navigate through the darkness. There is the common ‘baby blues’ which a lot of mums get quite soon after the birth – and surprisingly I didn’t. That might have something to do with the Placenta tablets I was taking. And then there is Post Natal Depression, which a lot of women suffer with and unfortunately don’t feel comfortable to share. But there is a whole grey, blurry space in between the blues and post natal depression. I knew I fell into that blurry, smudged out space. I’ve heard it referenced as ‘Post Natal Depletion’. I knew it wasn’t quite as simple as the hormonal shift that causes the blues, but I also knew that I wasn’t in the depths of full-blown post natal depression (PND). But I was feeling ‘something’… and that something wasn’t quite right. ++ Now – as a little aside; when I say it wasn’t ‘right’ I really want to clarify here that every single experience and emotion that I’ve been feeling has happened for a reason. They’ve also taught me more than expected and have definitely delivered slivers and light, clarity… insight. There is no such thing as a ‘wrong’ experience. Whatever cards you’ve been dealt with, well, they are exactly what the universe and the DIVINE plan etched into soul requires for you. I just want to be clear here that when I say it ‘wasn’t right’… well, really, what I mean was it was all ‘different’. I was feeling different, destabilised, disjointed. And these only became a problem when I saw them through the lens of ‘wrong’…when I judged them as wrong they became wrong – get me? ++ Which brings me back the help I knew I needed. As a Life + Wellness Coach I know the power in simply talking, opening up authentically, sharing and leaning into your experience and onto someone else and moving towards and into the energy you are feeling. There is not one (good!) coach out there that doesn’t believe in getting help when help is needed…and if they don’t well then they aren’t a coach/counsellor/psychologist/etc in my books. With that in mind, one day in floods of tears as I sobbed in my mother’s arms, I looked up at her and said, ‘Mum, I don’t feel like me anymore. This doesn’t feel ‘right’’. I had bravely decided to share the ‘off-ness’ of how I was feeling to my mum and I did so again to my sister. At first they balked and then tried to re-calibrate and re-frame; “Oh no honey, you are fine, just a new mum, it’ll pass”… they were just as afraid of PND as any new mum would be. However, it was not long after they, too, conceded that they could see a change in me that needed addressing. My courage in admitting how I was feeling allowed them to step forward and courageously admit it too. There was one part of me that thought perhaps I could just ride through this storm of heavy, wearisome emotions until I found myself back to the Claire I knew I was. But the other part of me (the soul speaking through me) knew that this needed addressing. It was time to get some help. As the universe would have it, I had already met the person who was going to be my guide many months ago. At the time she tweaked my interest – tugged at me without knowing why – and now I can see that it was already written in stone that we would come together again. A brilliant psychologist that specialises in supporting women through transitions – particularly women through birth and into motherhood – happened to become very close friends with my sister and lived across the road from my parents and family home. So when the time came to get help myself, my mum and my sister all knew who had to help me ride through this storm. As I write this, I’ve only had 3 of the 12 sessions I’ve booked in […] Read more

The Story of Soleil’s Birth Part 2

The Story of Soleil’s Birth Part 2

Posted June 01, 2015

The Story of Soleil’s Birth Part 2 If you missed out on Part 1 of this story please CLICK here to catch-up. ++ So, we left off at the point where my waters had broken yet labour had still not kicked in. My induction date was set and there was no going back. At this point I was accepting of the situation. It felt weird to ‘know’ the due date of my baby – the lack of randomness felt odd and overly planned to me, but nevertheless I was ready and this was happening and I’d finally let go of the fears I didn’t even know I had! On the morning of March 5th my husband and I pottered around the house, packed the car and had a beautiful breakfast together. Once at the hospital we set about making our room more comfortable. I put on a playlist I had created, started burning some ‘surrender’ oil and hung up the prayer flags my ladies had made me at my blessing way ceremony. We closed off the curtains to all the unnecessary medical equipment and dimmed the lights. Immediately the room felt calmer with a focused energy holding the space. Myself, Chris, my midwife and my doula spent time chatting and warming up to each other…warming up to the journey ahead. There was laughter and lightness – exactly what I had hoped for. At 11:30 I was administered the syntocinin – synthetic oxytocin to jump start the surges and get labour going. I was warned it can sometimes take a while to kick in with new mums… but not this mama! In less than two hours I was feeling my first ‘real’ surges, although I was still able to crack jokes in between. Within an hour I was plunged into the surreal ‘here and there’ space that comes with the intensity of full-blown labour. Naked. Swaying. Body rolling. I stood beneath the shower, feeling the hot water ease the aches and tingles that radiated from head to toe with each contraction. My body and my baby bearing down, earthbound, to open and release. There was no time for airs and graces. This was not the time for self consciousness or insecurity. There I was, out in the open. All woman. Moaning and rocking and breathing through it all, one moment and a time. Each surge, each contraction felt like a tidal wave rolling through my body… building in intensity and taking me with it. I found myself vocalising the intensity and loudly moaning and ‘omming’ through each wave. I had always imagined I would be very quiet and inward, but in the end I was very vocal – my inner warrior loudly took over. Now, I don’t want to use the word pain here — after all pain is dependant on how you perceive it – but there were moments when the sensations were so overwhelming, I felt overtaken by them. I found myself quietly repeating ‘it’s not pain, only a new sensation’ in order to stay present and ride the peak of the surge… and as I descended towards the end of each surge, my breathing would slow down, my attention would move deeper inward and my body and mind would move into stillness. I would stay here for what felt like mere moments, but in actual fact were minutes, between each surge. And then, once again, the wave would rebuild. My Doula, Lauren Falconer, and my husband were integral in supporting me through each surge… massaging me, hydrating me, wiping my face with a cold cloth, whispering supportive words… I felt held and completely able to surrender to the intensity knowing I had the most loving team backing me. It also allowed me to do what I feel every woman needs to do – let go of the outside world, of dealing with questions and concerns from the hospital or even worrying about time… I was able to let the beast of birth consume me and take me into it’s deep dark belly. If I clicked into my analytical, left brain I would start to question my abilty, my resolve or even the possibility that I could cope with this experience. But truthfully, when I stepped away from that headspace and stayed connected to my heart, my feeling space, my own inner wisdom, I knew I could do it. The most astounding thing that I can now see in retrospect is a birthing mother’s ability to be clear about what she wants and needs with diamond clarity – there was no confusion about what I required nor any fussing about in asking for me. Water. Massage. Be quiet. Hold my hand. I found myself almost barking orders to my team – something more powerful had taken over ensuring that we (my body, my baby and I) had exactly what we needed to move through each stage. I was also hyper vigilant… if anything happened that I felt unsure about or that sent shivers of insecurity through my body, I was onto it. At one point I saw Chris leave the room and I couldn’t settle until he had returned. I heard myself say on repeat “Where is Chris. Is he coming back?” I later learned that my beautiful mother, who was restlessly waiting for news at home, decided to show up at the delivery suite. Chris had been called out to see her! Probably not the best time to come, eh mum! ++ Ok…So there I was, deep in established labour and I intuitively had this feeling that my body was opening quickly. I asked my midwife when she was planning on checking my cervix for dilation – I had previously indicated that I wanted minimal interference including cervical checks. At this point it was 4pm and my midwife indicated she wasn’t going to check me until 7pm. Upon hearing that I almost fell apart. I now realise I was overcome with fear for a moment. Labour had become so intense I was starting to question my […] Read more


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